I haven't posted in a week or two because God gave me a huge gift - an actual website to write for - and get paid! It doesn't pay much but it does get me "published" and "exposed." I only attribute this to God and His infinite wisdom and plan for me and my family. I have no clue what will happen come next September, if I will have to go back to the corporate world, but I am firmly in His Hands. He knows me better than anyone, He gave me this gift of gab, so He can use it how He likes!
I am almost done with Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World and the chapter on Mary's extravagant love for Jesus really rocked me. I am now and again completely in love with Christ - I have declared her adaptation of Hebrews 13:21 my mantra - "I am all the Lord's, and He is working in me now to will and to do of His good pleasure."
Other things are hard but I know that vertically focusing on Him every chance I get will keep me in the right place, heart-wise, to let Him pour extravagant His love on my family members. The girls and I made a memory today that will last forever - not of yelling, angry Mommy but of a walk on a beautiful day, ending with a cloud shape hunt. It was awesome and so peaceful. It's bath time now - and the day is coming to a close - but I feel extremely relaxed and ready to see what He has for me tomorrow.
Love you Lord!!